It’s been a pretty good season so far, and now as we reflect on the last day before the end of celebration, we pay closer attention to the important things.
Was I kind in the shopping stores?
Did I keep my temper in check?
Have we instilled love and peace into our children?
Do we care not what we get, but whom we’re with?
There have been some pitfalls this year which took a toll on my trust levels. Every day is a chance to experience and learn about human behavior. It’s not always pretty. I’m learning it is not my responsibility to remedy or attempt to coach someone else’s struggles. It’s taking a step back, realizing I am not the mother of the world, and knowing they will be held responsible for their actions.
This year has also been a test of boundaries. I remind myself boundaries had been placed for a purpose, and I am allowed to set them back in place if they teeter or fall. One wants to trust, but one is not obligated to trust.
While I excitedly enjoy all the festivities of this holiday season, I process the pitfalls carefully. In one hand, I do not want to become angry and bitter again, but on the other, I do not have to experience hurt at another human’s hand (or word or deed.) I am allowed to experience peace and forgiveness. I am allowed to fortify barriers and seek protection.
Be blessed, dear reader, and Merry Christmas.
This has been,
Fanny T. Crispin